I’ve started my old job again, working 24 hrs as a freelancer using computer technology. Next to this I’ll still keep seeing my lovely clients for a few hrs a week. Read more later! Let me update you first on other things.
Lynn and I are traveling trough Europe for a few months with a camper, we call him Bram. It has been both beautiful and quite a ride, learning about each-others needs, triggers and challenges along the route. I now make the joke, if you think you’re enlightened buy a camper and spend time with your family! I’ve been learning allot about implementing mindfulness not just with myself but within the relationship. A challenge for sure, but I’m sure it will come in very handy in the future. Something we’ve been learning allot is using RAIN (a mindfulness based practice for triggers) and using this in partnership.
Starting in July me and Lynn will also start also to work in a surf/ yoga retreat center in Niguragua and in November I’ve signed up for a new therapeutic training called PSIP.
Who would have thought that, from meditating for a month in a monastery for 18 hrs a day to going back to my old job. From spending the last 3 years into learning therapy, volunteering for nothing and learning all these different healing modalities. And above all learning so much about myself and people around me.
If there is something I learned is that I don’t think a monastic life is for me, but meditation is, it will always stay with me and I will teach it until I die! I guess my journey for balance is back!
When I signed up for the meditation retreat I thought I would never go back to my old job. Unfortunately wanting to start a family, the need for stability is pondering and financially this is necessary.
A part of me is scared to do something I know is not fully my purpose, a part of me feels challenged: how can I stay present in my body even in the most intellectual job I can start.
Also, for me to fulfill my dream of helping others through the stresses of life, I need to first learn it myself right?
I’ll keep committing to learning more about myself, sharing and changing!
Might I be able to get insights in the middle of this job? Might I learn to get even more resilient and learning even more tools of getting back to myself faster, easier?
So far so good, I’m learning allot about myself and unraveling allot of understanding of why I couldn’t work this job anymore 3 years ago. I just know now: because my nature, I am sensitive, I need depth, I can find it within, I can be that kind compassionate person to myself. And then things are very different, there is more space, between me and my thoughts. I can always come back to normal, neutral. Sometimes I forget for a few hours. But eventually I come back.
I’ve come to see it’s all about coming back, stress, raptures, problems are always there, but it is how and when you come back.